Chapter: Me

The Longest Journey

2007-03-01T13:31:00.000+08:00

No, its not the game Im referring to... (tho purposefully)...

Its already past the FYP presentations and now, my peers and I are doing our diploma show. A few days later... we're free... free from past hurdles, and now into the new... into the adult life. For most of us guys, its into national service (unless some of us decides to delay ns and go futher studies;which isnt recommended). For the girls, its either start working or further studies.

Im already 21 this year... damn, how time flies.

I can still remember the first time i stepped into Temasek Polytechnic. The feeling was great. For a guy like me to be amongst Express students, learning the same stuff as them... was something I thought would be impossible. But I was wrong.

Wearing casual clothes to sch and having that desire to do games was my determination. Still can remember on the first day of sch, we made friends so easily like as tho making friends with stuffed toys when we were lil' kiddies... XD

I can remember that time like it was just a few moments ago... weird... like the perfume on some girls and the sense of belonging in a group... damn i miss those days. And now that journey has almost come to an end... I hope although that journey is coming to a close and each of us going our seperate ways, we'll still keep in touch with each other just like how we did years ago.

May your journeys take you wherever you want to go,
-JoeL

alo alo!

2007-01-28T22:54:00.000+08:00

Hi guys... been such a long time since ive updated my blog... currently im occupied with the following:

1) Voyage Century
2) Rakion
3) FYP

*note: FYP = sucking the lifeforce outta me

I need a healer! Can somebody be my healer? Please? (girl preferably) =þ *edited (chio one... chio one)*

2007 le... i guess the coolest thing that happened this yr is that Ive come to known new friends. And these new friends of mine are indeed friends that I wouldnt be what I am without them. I guess if they are reading this... Id just like to say, thanks guys... lol =p

Currently now im doing some work... hope to go out and relax with them soon... alrdy 11pm le... still havnt call back. haha~ siannnnnnnnn =þ

Hmm come to think of it... NS coming le... hohoho!~ T_T

=/ lets try not to think abt the future... not yet anyways...

-JoeL

~.~

2006-10-04T11:19:00.000+08:00

had mah eggy breakfast... now it is time to sleeeeep~ =3

meep!~
-JoeL

BORING!

2006-09-14T04:48:00.000+08:00

this blows... i need to do something... I WANNA GO OUT! (not alone, not my style). No want wanna go out with me! this is sad...

Today (technically "yesterday") sucks donkey balls! Ive been at home all day playing games and im getting bored... geez... well, at least there's sco and wr, not to mention my bunch of unwatched animes, but still... sighhh

wat made it worse is that in sco, things are getting tedious now coz the place im lvling is easily accessible by the opposing forces, and as you know... since there's no such thing as "declaring a war" or a "war event" (coz war in sco is passive and a constant thing), you wont be able to level in peace. therefore im having so much trouble now trying to level.

speaking abt sco. haha, ive made a new emblem and im proud of it! XD kicked out all of my guild members coz they were inactive and they arnt singaporean... so ive decided juz to hold on to my brigade till someone actually WANTS to join me. Even if there isnt one interested and I can still kick ass... i dun mind. X)

ohohoh... Ive heard from a friend of mine (samson). He told me abt this game called Pirate King. And boy.. im actually quite excited abt it... the visuals and all that pirate/ship stuff... and yes... its f2p XD

but you know me... purely lvl/item based games dun last long in my book. But it never hurts to try yea? =D

me: SET SAIL MATEYS!
crew made entirely out of babes: AYE AYE CAPTAIN!~~
me: SHIVER ME TIMBERS! YE BUNCH FULLED WITH NRG AYE? SET SAILS TO DE PORT OF BORINGTON! AR! ... oh.. and please, someone, pass me my passport... thanks...

WHAT YE LOOKIN' AT? AR!
-JoeL (getting into character)

ZOMBEH!

2006-08-14T01:28:00.000+08:00

meh... I like anything that has to do with zombies... never cease to entertain meh. lol... Tho I wouldnt wanna be a victim of a zombie but DAMN I like the suspence and trill of those zombie movies like "Land of the dead" and games suchs as "resident evil" whew...!~ XD

Currently had some time to play some of mah ps2 games that I didnt even touch since the day i bought it (cept to test if its workable).

I hope in future consoles... (esp for the ps3 and Wii for example) to feature a kind of internet connection simply by pluggin in the connection thingy to the console instead to the com.

sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.. + point to games that require teamwork... gwehehehehehe!~

ZOMBEH! ZOMBEH! ZOMBEHEHEHEH HOH HOH HOH HOH HOH HOH HOH!

(from afar the "H" looks like an "N" lmao...

weeeeeeeeeee!~ Im seeing things XD
-JoeL

Good vs Not Good

2006-08-08T00:36:00.000+08:00

I think lotsa shit is pounding on me... thk goodness Ive got SCO to try and "ace" it. Tho its juz a game... it aint that bad. The feeling and adrenaline is real... so thats what counts. Obviously shit continues to come by my way... i think imma just "dun give a fuck" and try to make do with what I have... turning that pile of shit into gold.

Ive learnt quite a lot this week... about learning to "not give a fuck" and to take things (that I do not have power against) lightheartedly... to laugh at my mistakes... but strengthen my weaknesses.

Procrestination sucks real bad...

... do now!... ask questions later! ffs!

These two weeks... sighh, i think ive disappointed lotsa pple... and yea, i guess its my fault. No, it is my fault... coz i know most of it is something I could have taken control of... but i just didnt. Its time to stop slacking and start working... Ive slept too much, and too darn long.

... its time to wake up.

-JoeL

22/7 2006

2006-07-23T05:08:00.000+08:00

Hmmmm... meh...

Im bored...

Only one thing I can think of...

...

That one step...

Could change my world...

I know it will work...

but whats going to happen after that?

I'm...

8/7 2006

2006-07-09T05:44:00.000+08:00

too be exact... it shld be 9/7 but i dun give a fk... lmao

Today was... totally the opposite...

Im glad I made that step...

"thks guys" (you know who u r)

... (if u even know my blog exist) LOL!!!

-JoeL

Painful Liberation

2006-07-07T23:11:00.000+08:00

Hmm, today's the seventh... 7/7

Isnt "7" supposed to be a lucky number?

Don't think so...

Lotsa bad things happened today... really bad... 2 of them which had directly affected me and another is hovering above my head... im kinda... in a bad shape... on the inside anyway.

But yea... at least Ill make this a lesson and a wake up call. I think pain that really hurts help us to learn our lessons better. Just like when we were young and had to be caned for a particular mistake/wrong-doing. I guess this is another form of being caned.

And yea, it hurts... but I guess ill be able to better myself... time to lick my wounds...

"let this be a constant reminder to myself".
-JoeL

:eltit

2006-06-24T00:01:00.000+08:00

hmm... been a mth now since my last entry... as most of you know... I still cant play sco at home.. so Ive been giving my attention to oblivion and warrock... and yes, my work as well (3D)... anyway, work's all over tho Im still gonna practise 3D by myself and by my own supervision *grin*. The next blk is coming pretty soon and I heard its pretty ez... lotsa paper work and all that crap... no big deal... (i hope).

Ermmm... Ive decided to post some of mah videos of my experiences in-game at youtube.com so be sure to visit me yea? To find my vids, juz search for the user: lancedna

And yea... because of that, imma go pick up some "After Effects" know-how just so I could make a kick-ass vid... heh, short term goal but as long as it feeds my interests, I wont be complaining abt extra work... XD

Speaking abt interests... I was gonna fill you guys in with some details... but doing so may make my life difficult so... HA!

Ohhhhh if you guys got any tutorials or watever in either 3D or After Effects... plz do sms or do WHATEVER to get a hold of me~ XD

Your help will be most appreciated =D

Thats all folks~
(baba dada babababa dadabada bababababa baaaaaaaaaaaaaaa~)

ooooooookie...

SCO hates me ='(

2006-05-29T03:01:00.000+08:00

Guess what? When the server finally got up, I could only... get in the game for only 2mins? and then... theres this error... some... Winsock problem.

Tried fixing it by following some proven guidelines in the SCO forum but didnt work... so now Im kinda screwed without a mmo to play... zzz. At least I still have Warrock! kikikikiki!~ XD

From what I saw and experience in SCO, its pretty neat for a free game lol... damn the error! I hope they fix it soon... and yea... todays the last day of my enjoyment... tues go back sch... -_-" and while you guys back at TP are hard at work... I on the other hand am rotting. Yes... tho i feel ive become quite a pro in-game... but still, i feel kinda retarded... =/ well, IRL of course...

NOW WHAT!? zzz~
sco... save me from this boredom... preeeeeeease!!! X(
I need my daily dosage of game!
And I forgot ytd was my birthday... LMAO! well at least I got 100bucks XD
Furthermore... Im now a young "MAN". WOOHOO!!! and ns is creeping closely... -_-

p.s - If you were to read this whole post fast enough... strangely, it sounds like I damn kp... lol freaky! =/ Imagine if i were to come right to ur face and "speechspam" you with what is written here in just 2 mins?... rofl~

Sch sch sch... sco sco sco... sighhhh~

"The World's balance. You gain some, you lose some",
-JoeL

SCO extended

2006-05-27T00:30:00.000+08:00

Guess what? Yep... still not up. Bah... Tonight I'll be staying up late again... hopefully my persistent would pay off... damn the game is driving me nuts...

Anyway... I cant wait to take off and start hunting (of course to get my lvl up) then hunt for opposing forces... [A.N.I vs B.C.U] hohoho! Gonna chiong ths game till my block opens... 3D char *chokes* starting this coming tues *chokes*, I hope I dun flunk... kikikikikiki!~ XD

So yea, currently waiting till 3am as usual, and eagerly waiting for new news. This time, my max tolerance would be set at 0400hrs, anything more then that, GL! GN! Scully sleep then open haha... -.- better not! ffs... I WANNA BE THE FIRST YA HEAR ME!!!

Just in case if anyone of you are interested and have no idea wtf im talking abt.. do visit http://sco.gpotato.com fer more details... =p

And to those who would like to join? I'll be at the first server "Joymus" and the faction Im pledging my loyalty to would be A.N.I

Currently my bro and 2 of our friends are in... and our classes are all different (thk gdness).

Listed are the types of gears featured in SCO. The concept is pretty much SG (shattered galaxy) AA for example (air-air) are, yes.. they fly, most of the time... and they work best against anything that flies. As for AG (air-ground), they work best against anything that's on the ground (in this case, the A-gear).

I-Gear / AA - air to air
B-Gear / AB - air to ground
M-Gear / support gear (a cleric/buffer if you will...)
A-Gear / GA = ground to air

Yes the game is free... no limitations unlike SG (shattered galaxy).

HAVE YET to test the game myself so dont bitch at me for introducing the game to you ffs... -_-" However... Ive got high expectations for this game... but I hope this long wait wont be wasted X'(

anyway most of those I know are bz so... I dun think it even matters lol! im like the only one slacking... however the next block... its gonna be a lil reversed XD WOOHOO! the world's so... fair? roflmao!~

SCO!!!! COME TO MEHHHHHH!~

I'm so high...
-JoeL

SCO

2006-05-26T04:49:00.000+08:00

The day has finally come for SCO to come on live.. and Ive waited and waited... then suddenly.. its way past 3am on a Fri and the server still aint up yet... 15th May, 26th May... and now they had to delay somemore... geez, Im going nuts! Im sitting here... and it feels like i cant take it anymore... drowsiness kicks in and im down... well, soon... hoping that ill get up on time to get into the world so that I could be the first to set foot into the online world of SpaceCowboy.

Only time can tell of what is to happen... I sure hope I'll be one of the first one in. Gear up and fly off... soaring the skies like id hope it'll be. Yes... only time can tell...

-JoeL

Caged Dream

2006-05-18T14:02:00.000+08:00

Just woke up from a, well... I wouldnt say nightmare cause it wasnt that scary... I would say its more like... a phoebia that has leaked into my dream. Its a phoebia I had when I was a kid, yes, "had". That phoebia was called "getting-lost". I had quite a number of experiences of getting lost when i was a child. Not just in Singapore, but in other countries as well while on holidays. Not just once or twice but a few times in seperate countries/locations. To tell you the truth, it still has some lingering effect on me. Most proberbly that may be the reason why till now, I dont like to travel alone by myself, be it going to the movies or even to the arcades or what have you. I just dun like to do things by myself. Perhaps I dun like to b lonely? Or perhaps a part of me thinks that something really bad is gonna happen to me and could ended up lost or "off-the-right-track"? Of course at my present state, getting lost isnt much of a big deal, its just troublesome... in the worse case sceniaro, all I have to do is to flag my hand... or... follow the MRT tracks... right? lmao.

And the dream I had? Its more like... a maze... a subtle maze that sort of brought me back to the start, and literally, it did. Its also a "caged Dream" I call it, because honestly I tried to wake up, but I couldnt... honestly, I couldnt. I couldnt even hear or feel whats happening to me IRL all I could see and feel were the moments in that dream I had.

The first place/scene started off at the church i used to attend: its in Bedok, a short bicycle ride could get me home. However in this dream, I could not remember how it first started or what we did before my journey home. However, we were playing with left over sparkles (I somehow felt part of the images I saw was like in my primary school). Apparently, somebody planted them on the ground, vertically of course. I DO NOT think that it is incense because it definately sparkle when I lit it up. Call it random, I have no control over my dream. Anyway, it started to rain, and I quickly threw the unfinished sparkle and got on my new bike... oh wait... yea, I recalled... My dad bought my brother and I a new bike for us. I dunno why but it just happen so stfu... -.-"

Anyway my brother wasnt my brother... it was my friend's little brother... dont ask me why or wtf?... just listen. -.-" ANYWAY! I knew at that point in time, he was my brother, cause HE CALLED ME KOR! And it wasnt the god-brother kind of kor... it was... the real deal man...

So yea, I had another friend with us who is also going home. And I believe that was my childhood friend L.K. He was always the guy leading the way (yea, he has a strong sense of direction... very strong in fact..). So, my brother and I followed him. I was weird, now Im having to guide my little brother and still I was still following someone else... so unconsciously, I was thinking to myself, hey... I DO know how to get back home (like ive stated earlier, quite a short bicycle ride). However, L.K led us into a different route. At first I thought it was a shortcut, cause he knows it best. And so, we journeyed on. Tough ride i must say, fucking complicated. We passed by hills, slopes, vehicles that could have easily knocked us down, across "bridges" that were made of pipes and just a simple wooden board over it, a special hill that has different colourful flowers decorated over it (it was the colour blue that I had visually took note of as the right path to follow). Also passed by a shopping district, where clothes, accessories and I swore I even saw a whore house... not the type where the ladies would stand outside and ask you guys to come in, its more like... you go in, and choose the woman there which were sitting down like as tho its a restauraunt. Rectangle tables... is what I recall too.

So after all that shit We'd been through, I saw my house... weirdly enough, my brother was gone, like... vanished. And L.K said goodbye to me and head home, just the way we always do IRL. And so was I, alone. Heading up to my block. Took the lift to the 10th floor and made a right turn. and guess what? I saw the door positioned NOT the way it was suppose to be, head down one floor and worse... there isnt a door, was simply a dead end. I frantically took the lift down... and guess what? It started at level 40+ and while I was in the lift... I was like... so damn confused I could not even describe clearly what I felt. I noticed around me in the lift that it was dirtier, marks that I havnt see b4 were now there. And then, the lift stopped as it reaches level 1. I got off the lift... and looked around in the area to see the surrounding blocks. And guess what? All the numbers were different and even the looks of the building WERE NOT the same. But how could that be?

Suddenly, I realised, I was at a part in the middle of the journey I had with L.K and my brother. This time, i was alone (weirdly enough, I had my bike with me). I climbed up a slope, cars came rushing down suddenly, unevenly, all nearly knocked me over. Was so tough to push up my bike... and numberously staggered back cause I was so drained. Then this guy in a motorbike came, took my hands/arm and acted like a rope that slowly brought me up the slope. I thanked him and continued on. I ended up at the shopping district, peeking into the whore house (thats how I knew what was inside) journey around, pple noticed that I was kinda lost but offered no help. Then I saw a lady, slightly arnd my mother's age, I spoke to hear because clearly I had forgotten which move to make and asked her for directions. The place I was had like a 2 way split, like a "T". I had to pick which way to go, either left or right. On the left, I saw a beautiful yet something i felt like it was evil or something. The path is like... going into a BIG tube made of bushes, the background was like... dark yellow in colour. On the right, it was a bit dark, however the street lights made it possible to see clearly. I knew at first, that was sorta right feel I had to take that path and continue on the journey, but I had to be sure.

Indeed, the lady pointed me to the direction which was the right path. Continued on and climbed over a hill (the one with different colours of flowers) and followed the colour blue. And then... I saw this image of a part in Tampines that I clearly knew where I was... then... I suddenly woke up...

Weird? I believe like in most of my weird dreams I had and will continue to have, its something that IRL, it influences the dream... be it something you've experience or something you hate, u like, your desires, fears and what have you, clearly... the dream before me is like an open book... I feel that its like... a book called... "My Inner Secrets chapter x". X meaning that its only a fraction of what Im seeing.

Interesting? Yea, I believe so...
After all, its something I could easily identify with because it felt so real...

Thanks for reading...

-JoeL

Rakion Day:2

2006-05-09T01:45:00.000+08:00

Is it me or are there more and more kids playing rakion? Seriousssssssly some kids cant shut up when things dont go too well for them... even so... they shld look arnd and realise what they have in advantage and put themselves in other player's shoes.

3v1 fair or not? 2 ninjas and a warrior vs an archer (me). @_@ and I totally owned their asses!... long story short. One ninja msged me online during the game and told me I should come out of the small area that im in. Meaning.. "stop being a pussy, and come out and face us on normal grounds!"

Note: the small area that im refering to is slippery (mammoth: an ice cave).

Come on man... i dun wanna call names but that kid is one silly lil jerkoff... =B DEHHHH!~

At least the other 2 are quiet and are focusing on the game at hand.

One thing learnt tho... during a game... dun give in to insults or u've already lost... i think thats why I won... =p instead of takin them all in... OWN THEM FURTHER! make them poop their pants so they could go crying to their mama!... make it clear to them that insults would make them feel even w34ker and n00bish!

And Im not a HACKer! -_-"

zakennayo!
-JoeL

Rakion is BACK!

2006-05-07T13:28:00.000+08:00

Well... "im back in Rakion" to be exact... lmao

Day 1 of my return (which is today) kinda disappointing but towards the end... damn glad that i didnt "f4rK-ed up" during a 1:1 battle... disappointing part its pretty obvious when u havnt been playing/practising a game for well, months. Even in days in particular will ur skill drop like popcorn... without the "pop" so, its simply... Corn... ok, thats not funny...

ANYWAY! I did fairly well tho... and also thks to the Dual I had with a jackass, my skill sorta went back up my ass... i mean... my... err... ME! yea, ME!... back to "ME".

So yea... I created a game cauz seriously retarded to keep joining a game and get kicked out either by high ping (laggers) in a room or by the host.

Then this warrior guy came into the game... so I was thinking "bah wth, lets start" so it ended up being a dual match cauz ive got no idea why no one wanna join at that point in time...

So yea... this warrior LOVES a free frag (kill), ok make that a "big, fat, nasty free frag, oh-can-you-let-me-kill-you-when-i-go-chaos-mode-?, bugger". And as a warrior vs an archer like me... its like... WTF!? DO YOUUUUUUUUU really wan exp that much? I mean gee... cant u juz win me by normal means, come on... you had the advantage.. but nooooooooooo... you had to call me names and keep saying "DEAD" when you killed me... *BOOM*! GAME FACE! YOUR DEAD! no free frag, no miss nice archer anymore... _|_ >_< _|_ youuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu! (sry, damn emo now).

So fine... bs aint gonna get me anywhere... tried my best, and he was always a few frags higher then me... ok so then he started scolding my mom... (typical kid talk) so I said... "dude, ur a warr, im juz an archer" plz do note that Im a lvl 14 archer and he was a lvl 21 warrior... BIG armr and stat difference mind you... comparing my armr + health to the damage he dealt me is like... sitting on potatoes... no wait... it wont feel right... more like tomatoes with all the juice bursting out...

KNN! so I continued and said "If u really wanna play fair and square, take out ur archer" and he did... =/ so i waited and tada!~ there he was... with a lvl 17-ish archer... I was like... "knn, this kid really wanna prove me wrong" so of course I owned his ass... i wasnt happy tho cauz its pretty unfair to challenge someone OUT of his/her specialty, in this case... his warrior. So I wanted to ask him bring out his warrior again, both of us fight nude (meaning no equipments; note that even so, higher lvlers mean more stats so it still isnt as fair, but its better then the current state).

Then... the kid started to whine saying... my damage not high... my damage not strong...

THEN WHEN I FOUGHT WITH UR WARRIOR EVEN WORSE RIGHT? knn, this kid full of bs. So heck... not gonna be soft hearted at this moment... owned owned owned owned.. then he quit... -.-" and after all that verbal abuse... kao eh... and I juz came back today lor... nb. However, thks to that butthole. I can say that yea... I got my skill back... well, most of it... =/

Cool... I feel much better now... XD lmao

I think imma *asteric* the vulgarities... ok forget it... if not emo again..

Oh... b4 I forgot (not even sure u guys are gonna read the above till the end, over here..) ANYWAY... juz wanna let you guys know Im gathering pple to play Rakion and form up a clan... in the game, skill isnt good enough... You need teammates... a legion... care to join? ;P

-JoeL

Day: One

2006-04-24T07:35:00.000+08:00

woah, back to sch again, so fast time flies huh guys? Sighhh, I hope I'll have some time to chiong animes even during the semester... juz a few days ago, I saw it... the game I've been longing for... however there are mixed feelings abt it now... to buy or not to buy...? But the coin's nice tho... *mumble* *mumble* arghhhhhh dunnoooooooooooo!~

I guess time will tell... and btw spacecowboy never did open... still in close beta crap or something... made me wait for so long, its pissing me off... X(

Heh, this coming sem is gonn abe cool... no more loneliness!~ XD P3 is gonna be a blast! Mark mah words ya prick! err... sry...

If ya have no idea what Im talking about... hmmmmm wellllllll........... too bad! XD
You'll have to observe then! WAHAHAHAHAHA! (and somemore dots between "WAHAHAHAHAHA")

And reviewing from the last post... Chrono Cross is niceeeeeeeeeee...

Well, cya all in sch!~ Later!

"NEKO-CHANNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN" X)

-JoeL

1st April, 2006

2006-04-01T13:24:00.000+08:00

Just 2-3 more days till the reopening of Space Cowboy! WOOHOO!~ And lesser then 3 days till I can get my hands on Elder Scrolls 4: Oblivion! Double WOOHOO!~

Currently watching sum anime... Ichogo 100% ROX! Too bad the ending wasnt exactly what I had in mind... but then Mud told me that I shld read the manga (and thats wat imma do!) hehehehe... Im sure its gonna be a blast... however I cant do that yet... currently Im dl-ing Chrono Cross... so its gonna be really laggy to view the manga online. So for now... Im watching School Rumble... lol kinda funny... but i still miss Ichigo 100%.. the gals there are Fannnnnnnntassssssssstic! XD w00tn3ss Overwhelming!

huh? I hear something...

-JoeL

-unknown frequency-

2006-03-29T16:54:00.000+08:00

Today I had a weird dreammmmm. Woke up at 8am+ then went back to sleep around 10+, during this time (the 10+ dream) I had this weird dream about me and someone...

I know my cousin was in the dream, advicing me about businesses... somewhere in the dream towards the ending, there was a fight, I was with someone else in that scene (obviously Ive forgot most of the details), Im not sure if it was an old friend of mine or another cousin of mine, all I knew was we were escaping from a group of killers... perhaps the mafia... anyway... the setting was kinda unique... sea of water, INDOORS (in a fancy hotel or restaurant; not in the dining area), and platforms that are floating on the water...

We had gotten pretty far from the "mafia", we had our belongings with us... lots of baggage, im not certain why our belongings came in the from of heavy luggage. All I knew is that we could not escape if we were to insist on bringing them with us. But then out of a sudden, there was this person, (not sure who again) that was being pulled out from his/her platform, Im not sure why there was that person appearing out of nowhere but it was certain he/she was very important to me... we (as in with the other person with me) wanted to save him/her and at that instant, escaping was the last thing on our minds, more like... an adrenaline rush or just plain impulsive...

Whatever it is, the guy next to me (was certain he was a male) peddled/swam in with his platform... I too, but was a few distance behind him... when his platform clashed with the mafia's he suddenly got out numbered, but he struggled to fight back...

I sat there, frozen, didnt know what to do... all i did was... froze. He looked back at me... yelling me to help him... I really couldnt even move myself, even though i really wanted to help him. He pulled back and dived back towards me, fleeing from the mafia crowd... they gave chase. I pedaled back... away from him...

He called me a traitor...
I stunned... then... suddenly I dunno why... I felt this... weirdness... like an aura around me... I jumped in on his platform (which was a few distance in front of mine) landed, and killed off all the basterds... Im not sure what weapon i used but Im certain during the attack, I was holding a lightsaber (wtf?) and used powers similar to the force (starwars)... call me weird but its just my dream...

The person in-charge of those mafia wasnt so lucky, i strangled him with the force, lifting him up from the ground, without using my hands...

Suddenly... (the most weirdest part) I heard a familiar song playing... (Naruto the Movie: Home Sweet Home by YUKI) at first i didnt know what song was it but it was so damn familiar... it was a beautiful tune.

The song came in like as though it was at the end of a movie that was playing in my head. Though no credits were displayed (thk gdness; if so i might be seeing only my name -_-") the song kept playing, it was so clear, the lyrics everything...

... then a snapped out of the dream... lol

I was like... huh? wah? wtf? whats that song? Then i got up from my bed, sat there and wondered where that song came from... and then... suddenly I remembered... lol

Im listening it now as Im typing... as weird as it seemed, but... the experience was...

... soothing...

-unknown frequency- Ending transmission,
-JoeL

27th March, 2006

2006-03-27T17:33:00.000+08:00

sw33t... mom told me that the tampines swimming complex is about to open... just 3 more days left!

Need ta go fer a d33p in da pool of chio... i mean... water... chio water... havnt swim in it for ages~ X) time ta break da sp3ll! Its gonna beh kewl with all the l33t, sw33t, r0x3rz, b4b3hs!... but thats just me... =/

I wonder how much's the entrance fee... Xo

Anyway... lemme see...

"I LIKE TO SCARE CATS!"

err...

-JoeL

SIP: Ending of week 4...

2006-03-24T22:04:00.000+08:00

err... so much to write, I dun even know what to say or how to say...

so... I chose not to say cauz there's no point saying them anyway lol!~ Xp

Anyway... 4 more weeks to go, pretty fast huh? Hope you guys are doing well on ur side. Everything is changing, not sure whether its for the good or for the worse but yea... its definately changing... even the environment around my house is changing so drastically, I could hardly recognise it. I bet if I could teleport my old "me" in the past to the present, he'd be suffering a heart attack if he takes a look at this. lol

The only thing that scares me about "time" the most is to lose someone whom you know you love but is unable to show it to him/her... and once that person is gone, u'll never be able to have the chance to do so again... so I juz wanna remind you guys... dun take people for granted... esp those you really care for...

Coming to 20 this year... I realised how much time I have left... and its not that long... the average person a guy could live is about 70... Im not sure what's todays standards but it doesnt really matter... its not a lot anyway...

So in other words... ive already used up about 1/3 of my life. Im just wondering now whether if im able to live that long... and even if I do... what will I be in the next 2/3 of my life that has yet to be written...

If you'd ask me things like this in the past... Ill juz say live life to the fullest... but what's that? What is living your live to the fullest? Is it fulfilling your dreams? Starting a family and be happy? or what...? I guess... I'm not even sure anymore... or perhaps Im just thinking to much while Im writing this... heh... honestly, I wasnt going to write such a long post... but I think... somehow... -_-" nvm

ANYWAY! Just thoughts... watashi 2 cents desu...

*gameless, dunno wad to explore now...*

All the best in ur last 4 weeks yea? X) ja...

-JoeL

SIP: Day 1 - 2

2006-03-01T12:54:00.000+08:00

Hmm... sry bout' not updating the blog for quite some time... err here goes...

It all started on the first day of work at SIM Tech, NTU. I wasnt certain how long it will take me to reach my workplace by 8am. However, after calculating the traveling time, giving quite a bit of allowances, Ive managed to come up with a full prove plan... simply by waking up at 6am everyday I should be able to reach there early.

However, there was another problem:

4 bus rides + 2 Mrt rides = hole in pocket (to and fro)

therefore, hole in pocket x 20 = poor bastard

solution... keyword "consession"

However on the first day, i didnt have the time to get the consession thingy so... from 10+ bucks, it became 4+ bucks... suck ass... period...

On that same day... we got 2 phases of projects...

1st phase -->
1 corporate video in flash and 1 seminar flash slide (due date: 9th march)

2nd phase -->
main project (secret) all the way till sip ends

And yea... the 1st phase really drained me alot on the first day... collecting data, trying to resume the work which the in-house designer did and familiarizing with the company, basically getting use to the place around us.

Ive just received information regarding Thursday's IMD dinner... haha. Not sure if i'll be able to make it... but i'll... try.

Well, i guess thats all... damn tired. bah bah!

-JoeL

Breaks down... crumbling, never to be restored again

2006-01-21T03:17:00.000+08:00

Well yea, its late at night... or, morning... very early in the morning. Really had a bad day err, ytd. Only later during the day things started to get better... tsk. Shit happens... and yea... sometimes one after another. Pile of shit i must say. heh... =/

I'll just sweep away the pieces... and hopefully, the games i play will continue to occupy my thoughts, rather then "roaming around in this empty room".

Just 2 abbrevations...

ES4, HGL
*grin*

ps- If ya noe where I could get a copy of "Memoirs of a Geisha", please inform me... thks. (the book... the book...)

-JoeL

Procrestination, no satisfaction...

2006-01-09T08:00:00.000+08:00

heh... sry for not posting for some time... been rather bz lately, wasnt feeling well those pass few days as well. Anyway... remembered in the last post I said that I was gonna do my line animation sketches? lol, till now... i only did one "page". A page that only took me less then a min to do... which I did like in... week 5-6.

Geez... now I'm starting to feel the pinch all over again... Last week (week 9), wasnt my best week obviously; fell ill, lotsa shit to do... etc etc. This week is just a duplicate but with a different subject. -.-"

So yea... Chionging this week... hopefully i wont get owned. Talking about owned... Tommy Qwek emailed me and told me that the system showed that I did not do subject selection and that the final warning had already passed, meaning... I am screwed. Thing is... i DID subject selection on the very day it was opened. I even saved the confirmation message after I did the ss. So please tell me this is all a glitch or he had emailed the wrong person. Cauz if not... the system really is FUBAR...

Another thing that is FUBAR is the o2jam server.. geez! My account got stucked... I cant connect to the game/channel. Suck BALLS!

sighh... today's a monday. Dun feel like going to class. Gotta do sketches and "try" to come up with a script for scriptwriting today. Will go back to sch later to do line animation and also to attend my WI (world issues) class at 6-7. MEHHHHHHH!~

Gotta chiong man... gotta chiong... MON, TUES... DOWN!
Coffee... oh yea~~~~

I hope I dun procrestinate again... =/,
-JoeL

2nd day...

2006-01-02T11:53:00.000+08:00

2006...

I wonder what awaits me this year...

Another change perhaps...? I don't know... just hoping that things change for the better... =)

Hmm, tmr is the beginning of the 2nd term... =p hope I'm prepared to go to sch tmr... got a feeling somehow that something is not right... oh well... bring it on! XD least I'm still alive and kickin' hehehe! XD

Hmm, waiting for the others to play o2jam with... Imma use some time in sketching in some stuff for my line animation assignment... zzz dunno when would I be able to draw a "chio bu"... hahaha...

All and all... things are... pretty much... ok... i guess...

Woke up... watched a movie (in chinese; even the subtitles -.-") surprisingly I fully understood the whole movie. Thanks to Justin for the movie *respect*. After that, listened to some songs and was reflecting about what I had just watched in the movie...

The movie is simply great... haha... dunno why it made me feel better although the story itself is a sad story (dun wanna spoil it for you guys... go find justin if ya wanna watch lol).

Hmm... I guess that's it... haha

Have a nice day,
-JoeL^^

The new year?

2005-12-31T23:32:00.000+08:00

Same as any other day man... tsk

Kinda irritating ya know... special day, no special someone to celebrate it with...

this feeling sucks...

I've done my line animation already... basically know what to do for World Issues... ermmm... tml doing scifun and prolly a lil 3D modeling. Not even sure if Im gonna be at the state of mind to do any work...

The Whole of today was just one thing... O2JAM (its like online beatmania) Not in the mood to describe the game, just go to www.e-games.com.my (yea, its free) =/

Sighh... looking at the time now... just 20mins left before 2005 is something of the past. =(

Now what?...

-JoeL

"tsk..."

X'(

2005-12-30T11:25:00.000+08:00

so much for the title of this entry... =/

Its 11:26am, I'm sitting on mah chair staring at the monitor, wondering whether i'll be able to get the subjects I want for the next semester... Im pretty bumped out cauz... i was like... 40-50mins late.. geez...

Im taking 2 3D subjects, the 3rd subject, im not sure what to take... i guess ill settle it when the time comes for add-dropping... no cdasses.

Gonna go back to sch later... to do my line animation... then after that, if got time, gotta meet my group members for World Issues discussions, hopefully... I'll manage to complete my line animations AND know what to research for our WI project (best if i've already done my research by the end of today)...

If need be... I'll have to sacrifice this day to complete this 2 tasks at hand cauz on sat... there'll be more shit to do... heh... =|

Will inform you guys later today... see if I have managed to do the above mentioned thingy...

"sighh"...

-JoeL

BOOM! HEADSHOT!

2005-12-29T22:09:00.000+08:00

yea indeed... thrice in the head... my head... =.="

serioussssssssssly man... if we were using real bullets... i think my head would be pretty messed up... fubar man... fubar...

anywayyyyyyyyyy, today we got another 2hrs of gameplay... (an hr extra; coz the last time we only played like an hour and it started to rain). Amazingly, I didn't need any xtra clips... used only 2. Exhasting match... couldnt run with a rifle... just couldnt... why dun they juz give me a blardy handgun? lmao, or a sniper rifle? And ya know whats funny? i expected the arena to be a lil bigger but to my disappointment... its like... the size of a KIDS (yes... KIDS) playground... why? COZ ITS SO FREAKIN SMALL...

THE MAZE! ohhhh wooooooow... brrrrrrr~~~~ i tot it was gonna be like... standing at the edge, checking the opposite side/behind u know? sorta like... you've got the cover you need... BUT HEY! nooooooooooo it had gotta be a small maze up to... waist length. DUDE! even if u crouch, ur gonna get shot in the head man! Not cool, serioussssssssssssly not cool... (poor sam) =p'

But hey, 30bucks first time experience... its pretty cool... yea... (lotsa dots)... yea... pretty cool...

30bucks for getting shot upclose... yea... priceless... (at least i still get to keep my face intact...) =/

Oh yea, if u didnt know ermm we played at crossfire. My final verdict... "ok lah". Need bigger arena for sure... and teh rifle ah... geez, I meant i like the whole package on the rifle and all looks/weight etc etc... but... its pretty faulty. Imagine you've got an enemy on sight... you squeeze the trigger and suddenly instead of the nice, orgasmic *BANG*! u get *tsssssssssk*. You checked ur ammo and in ur head u go like "WTF!!!!!?" and clearly u are NOT outta bullets, u try a second time... *tssssssssssssssk*.

ok... gg~ *BANG* and ur dead... woohoo!~ -.-"

Next place we wanna go... TAG! But im not sure where it is... however what I've heard from Justin is that the arena is abit bigger then the one in crossfire but it is sorta open space... the current rifle I used has its effective range of 10m but the one in TAG has 50m (u can imagine the injury u'll get if u got hit upclose)

The injury u get from a "10m rifle" in 3m is a nasty wound (already bleeding but skin is more or less intact) what about the 50m one?

... I... dun wanna know... =/

The rifle at crossfire is almost exactly as the exact rifle (bottom-up type of ammo; clips) however the one in TAG is top-down... i think most of you have seen it before... dunno how to explain, but my guess is like those sterotypical paintball design where there is this container on top of the back part of the rifle...

Anywayyyyyyyyyyyyy...

Thanks for the game guys... its been lotsa fun XD hehehehehhehehe!~
Cant wait for TAG.... w00tzor!~

(sry for the long post lmao...)
*ps, we lost =p' haha

-JoeL

PCS.source

2005-12-26T22:40:00.000+08:00

PAINTBALL COUNTER STRIKE. source!

27th December 2005.
"where boys become men"

---------------------------------

"woah! I'm excited!"

"BOOOOOM! HEADSHOT!!!!"

XD

-JoeL

MERRY CHRISTMAS!

2005-12-25T02:47:00.000+08:00

Best wishes!~ =D

~May all your Dreams come true~

WOOoOOoOOOOOoOOoOOOOOooOoOoPiE!~~~~ XD

Eye for a Fly?

2005-12-24T03:21:00.000+08:00

Hewwo pple... few days ago, I've found out about this sw33t game. Well, first of all, its free... (think about GunBound's payment system). The game is like Preston Tale/ Rose Online... but free (yes... forever free...). Those interested plz do inform me if ya wanna play... do note that I will only play it when Im either free or bored but yea.. its free, so.. I can play anytime I want and rise through the levels as slow as I want to... muahahahaha! -.-"

The game is called FlyFF (Fly For Fun). Apparently the monsters in the game are seperated into different catagories. Land, Air. And 5 elements; Fire, water, electric and etc etc (dun really care). The cool part about this game is that you are able to fly around and yes, U can only attack airborne monsters when ur flying.

A few cons about this game tho.

1) Its kinda lag.
2) Lotsa pple playing so its difficult to log in (only 3 servers; however u can switch servers without worrying of changing characters).
3) Its a level based game so expect lots of mindless hacking and slashing.

Its not bad for a ffa (free for all) game so yea, why dun ya pop in? =p

The url: http://english.flyff.com/

Ok, other from the game, I didnt have time to upgrade the blog yet... (i guess you can tell why...) been practising AA (America's Army) as well as brushing up my drawing skills + other stuff. Few more days till I can see my mom again... <3
adding to that, Im really gonna get broke soon... doh! "Trying" to save up for the paintball game... really excited about it, lol... really hope it's gonna be worth every penny. If not, really gonna be damn emo...

Lemme see, wat else... err... I guess thats all imma let u guys know... catch ya later... Xp

-JoeL^^

Sincerely

2005-12-20T08:10:00.000+08:00

Sighh, I woke up today... missing my mom.

She had gone for a mission trip to India yesterday with a small group of about 6-7 (maybe more) Christians from the same church as her. Part of me wished that she'd never leave Singapore and just stay home. However another part of me know that this is what my mom would do and it wouldn't be good to stop her from doing so.

Kissed my mom that day and dared not looked back because I didn't want to cry infront of her when she is leaving for India.

Now I'm writing this after preparing/cleaning up for breakfast. Couldn't get the coffee right... it either too diluted or too concentrated. My mom gets it right all the time... I guess I really took her for granted. My mom will be back next tuesday. I can't wait to see her face again. lol. This is funny, I dont usually express my love with words... I guess this makes me a better man.

... see you next tuesday mom... ^^~ Love you...

-JoeL

*ps. Sorry guys, left school yesterday without informing you guys clearly. Forgive me. Oh, XJ... thks for replacing me... appreciate it. ^^~

|Part 2|--- 9:33pm

lol, went to the interchange today and got myself a cup of Blue Coral bubble tea for a dollar. I gave like 8 5cent coins to the auntie... and she and her friend emo me sia... lol. I apologised and hastily left that aweful situation behind me. lmao, damn paiseh.

My bro went back to CS/NS (CS, u all know... NS = Natural Selection; another half-life mod). And as for me, Ghost Recon =x Quake 4 was awesome! Wanna 'try' and finish G.R cauz after that game... I really gtg start on Resident Evil 4 lol. DO NOTE that Im not gonna play everyday so plz dun stereotype me... I too have a life to live ya know? X(

Anywayyyyy... ermm... just wanna tell you that I'm gonna "try" and improve on the aesthetics of this g**-forsaken blog. Yea, like I've said on the previous posts that Im gonna do my best to revive this blog/shit up... =x

Ermm, thk you for ur support? And please be patient with me... I'm still a n00b blogger. I'm trying... I'm trying... yea yea...

LETS HOPE FOR A BETTER FUTURE! (err..)
-JoeL

Renewal

2005-12-04T00:39:00.000+08:00

lol... don't ask me why. I just felt like it... =p

I just remembered something...
Look at the header. "The Dream Will Never Die". It's time to get back to my roots...
Hope to be able to share my adventures with you all be it IRL or in-game.
I'm pretty excited myself, gonna "try" to post everyday but plz don't expect too much on this simple, humble blog of mine... =p

And yea... I'f ya think my blog needs a LOT of work (in terms of looks) plz do advice me on what ta do... (I'm still a noob blogger). =/

cya!
Joe^^~